For those about to debate ...

Okay my lovelies ... could you all possibly help me? :)

I'd read that Cee-Lo (Gnarls Barkley) and The Foo Fighters performed "Darling Nikki", at the eMpT-V Trainwreck Video Music Awards, in addition to Alicia Keys also performing "Freedom '90" at the same show. What I'm looking for is this: mp3s of the songs!


It kind of gets me that I can access mp3s of Fall Out Boy and their labelmates all over the damned place ... but I have no clue where to get anything else! (And if it's unbelievably easy to get this stuff ... I would probably cry because of my own stupidity.)

So, if someone could point me in the right direction, it would be most excellent.

Note - I hate having my picture taken; I'd rather stab myself in the eye with a spork. So, I just sucked it up and dealt with it, to give you pictures!

( hair color, before - and after )

If nothing else, I'm glad that the weekend is coming, so I can have time (and inclination) to do laundry and maybe clean the place up some.

Tomorrow, I'm getting my hair colored. I thought I'd give Travis's coloring skills a try, because as much as I like my current colorist, he's a bit sloppy at times. Must be a trade-off for being so f'ing cheap (under $100). I'd like to come out of the salon with good color - on my hair only, please! (One prior instance with the current colorist resulted in my favorite Hello Kitty Hissfits shirt being wrecked. *commence pouting*)


Anyways - there's that. Also, I'm getting another step closer to the allergy shots. I'd never thought that holding an EpiPen in my hand would be so anxiety-provoking. Hopefully, I'll never have to use it, but just the fact that I'll be carrying one around is/was giving me cold feet about the whole process. To balance it out, my health insurance was being assholian about paying for the EpiPen. They didn't. So, I spent $130 for something that could either save my life, or be a waste of my money.


I'm sure there's a lot of other things that I can write about, but I don't know what to say! Hopefully, my lovelies, you all will have a good day today, and an even better weekend! I think we all need it right now. :-D

A quick disclaimer: Anything linked to Fleshbot.com is from a truly NSFW website. The specific articles I've linked to aren't bad - but the site overall, is definitely not work- or young ones-friendly.

Men On A Mission - 2008 Calendar

Okay, I just have one question ... Dude, where were these guys when I was growing up in the Church?

Not that I'd really want to shag them, but still ... hotness!


That's right, Brendon Urie and Brandon Flowers ... I love (fallen) Mormon boys. ;-) {And Brendon? Could you keep flirting with - and kissing - Ryan? Please?}

Speaking of hotness - Sari Secrets. This site may be considered sacrilege to some - but damn, the girl shown in the article ... seriously gorgeous. I have a thing for "all natural" models, especially the curvier ones. (Hello, Mia Tyler!)

I should probably do something like this every several months, just because. :-) And please don't mind that this is kind of all over the place ... that's just my style.

Anyways, I'm Carly - old as dirt 34, living in San Francisco and I'm an insurance geek. In other words, I'm the person you call when your insurance rates skyrocket, you have a claim, or you've been spending a rainy afternoon reading your policy (oh, wait ... those were my clients in St. Louis).

I was born and raised in St. Louis, and moved to San Francisco in March 2004, for a "change of scenery" (read: to move in with my girlfriend - and to get the hell out of the midwest), even survived the Mormon Church - yes, just like Brenden Urie and Brandon Flowers have also done. I still live with my girlfriend, Kellie (sigmaration) and her two cats, Teak (a solid, stocky black cat ... I call him the "Angry Black Man") and Cleo (a rather wussy ginger tabby, that I call the "Red Menace").

Yes, I'm queer (lesbian, whatever you want to call it) - and Patrick Stump has stolen my gay. And from what I've seen / read, I'm not the only one with that problem. Yes, I still have the occasional boy crushes, and I've got several gay boys in my life, whom I love dearly.

I like dirty jokes; music (everything from Willie Nelson and Norah Jones to Metallica and Guster); say "dude" way too much; occasionally swear in front of small children (much to the chagrin of their parents); tend to read two or three books at the same time; watch too much (sur)reality TV; enjoy comedies (Airplane!, Meatballs, Zoolander, among others); make it a point to see any Pixar and Tim Burton films that come out; have an unrepentant love of Hello Kitty, and I love Lewis Black and Patton Oswalt's comedy.


As for this blog, well it contains all kinds of things - talk about the everyday, the good, bad and indifferent, and whatever else comes to mind. I have a couple of filters, which helps me to keep you all from wanting to kill me because you don't want to read about my adventures in slashfic, my musings on sex or my slogging through therapy.

If you want to join any of the filters (and I think several of you are already on the fanfic one), let me know, and I'll add you! :-)


That's all I can think of for now - if there's anything else that you want to know, just ask me!

Okay, there are quite a few new people around here ... and I should do an intro post, and soon!

In the meantime, welcome to my madness - and please don't mind my rambling about my allergist's appointment!

Lucky me, I have a life-long allergy to grasses, as well as a pet dander allergy that came up when I was in college (never mind that I grew up with animals)! A few years ago, I found out that I had asthma, too. :-/

Anyways, it was inevitable that I would need allergy shots at some point. That point, is apparently now. I had to read and sign the consent forms that basically say, "Yes, I know that there is a 0.00000000001% chance that this can kill me - but I'm fucking stubborn and/or masochistic and/or have a death wish, so sign me up!" Okay, so it really says "these are the risks and the benefits, this is how much of a commitment this will involve ... and oh yes, you'll be carrying an EpiPen with you in case you go into anaphylactic shock after leaving our office." (I think my version sounds cooler and more honest ... but, that's just me)

So now, the Good Doctor^TM gets to mix up some allergens, and I get to come in once a week to get three shots for the next several months. Woohoo.

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In good news, I got my hair cut again (well, it was more of a trim-up), and I've got an appointment to get colored next weekend. I'll get pictures of the new cut posted soon - tonight was not a good night for it! :-D

I have a sex filter, where I write about sex (duh) and anything related to it.

As a part of the filter, I post questions from the book, The Book of Questions - Love and Sex - mainly when I have no idea of what to write. And since there are some non-sex related questions, I thought I'd post a couple of the questions here.

Also, addition to the filter is ongoing - just drop a line on here, and I will add you!


In the meantime, onto the questions:

#15. If you were feeling sick and miserable, would you rather be by yourself or have your partner with you? Why?
I tend to prefer being by myself, because I can be a big baby about being sick, and I'd rather not subject anyone else to it. But sometimes, I do want my partner to be around to take care of me, because I can be a big baby. It's just a major dichotomy, really.


#78. When you look back on past relationships, do you ever wonder what you saw in a former lover? If so, is it more because you have changed or because you have grown to see the person more clearly?
Do I ever wonder? Is the sky blue? Seriously, there have been many times that I would question what I saw in a former lover. Usually, it didn't come up until a long time after the fact - and it came about from seeing things more clearly, since I wasn't caught up in the lust, or caught up in the moment, or just seeing what I wanted to see.

That's kind of how I came to realize that an ex-boyfriend was abusive towards me. I assumed that what was the verbal and emotional abuse was just his sarcasm and his general personality - not his way of abusing a lover. He wasn't hitting me, so therefore, it wasn't abuse. Yeah, I was desperate for affection and love, since I didn't feel like I was loveable. So I kind of glommed onto whomever came around - and didn't pay any mind to what came my way.


So, what about you, my lovelies? How would you answer the questions?

I was fussing with my nails today - my nail polish is peeling, about 3 days post-manicure - and I thought of something from my childhood: peel-off nail polish.

Does anyone else remember this? Typically it was under the "Tinkerbell" brand, and usually came in 'sheer pink' - kind of like a tinted top coat, or sometimes even in "actual colors" like pink and some shade of peachy-orange.

Fun stuff. I think I painted my nails (and peeled off the polish) at least a few times a day! I kind of wish that they made it for adults - that would be quite fun. :-)

Okay ... so I checked it out, and it turns out that they make it for "grown-ups", too!


Sure it's all nice and environmentally-friendly, and "good for the body", but I refuse to give up my lust for Chanel Nail Polish, especially in the classic Vamp shade. And I'm not parting with my OPI - Lincoln Park After Dark either!

While politics may not be my big thing, I admit to being fascinated by the in-fighting among groups within the individual political parties. The Republicans make for especially fun politico fight-watching. The fact that there are Christian groups that think of Shrub as not being conservative enough is quite scary and nightmare-provoking, in and of itself.

On another tangent, with Karl Rove gone, whatever will Shrub do with himself? Will he have Lord Voldemort Dick Cheney ordering him around even more? Seriously, I just want to know if Shrub has ever had an independent thought - or if he's just parroting what he is told by consultants and others within his administration/ political circle.

And speaking of Karl Rove, this month's issue of The Atlantic has a good - and slightly unsettling - article about Karl Rove and his hand in the failed BushCo presidency, written by Joshua Green.

One thing that stuck out for me - besides Rove's William McKinley fetish - was this comment made by Dick Armey (R-Texas) about the difference between the attitudes of Clinton and Bush:
( Way to Lose Friends and Alienate People! )

Yeah ... there's probably more, but that part just stuck out to me.

I'll be glad when those haughty jackasses are out of office.