Blargh...

It's warm in the office today, so we're all feeling really sluggish and draggy today. I'd already spent a good part of my weekend in bed sleeping (although Sunday was "vacillate between horniness and apathy day" for whatever reason), and now I just want to get back into bed and sleep another 12 to 16 hours.

I'll do what I can to keep from falling asleep in my corn & potato chowder at lunch time - shame I can't have a couple of specially-selected people around to just spank me at random moments to keep me awake. Yeah ... that'll go over well.

Dear Kellie and Ty -
You've been selected personally by me to come around and smack me on the ass whenever you feel like it, or whenever I start to nod off, whichever occurs more often. Please don't be alarmed if you end up being snogged heavily, or dragged into the mailroom for a quickie against the copier.
Love,
Me.

Hey, a girl can dream, right? ;) Until then, I'm going to get something to eat ... then see if I can get some more energy to make it through the rest of the day.

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I hate this whole uncertainty thing. I hate going into work and almost wondering if I'm going to have a job at the year's end ... or if I should just go ahead and get my resumé updated and at the ready, just in case. I hate the fact that I'm starting to dread going to work in the morning. I don't know if it's depression, job insecurity, or what - but it really sucks, whatever it is.

What's really bad is when I come home from work and just cry for no reason whatsoever. There's just too much going on right now, I'd love to just shut the world down and hide away for a while, but I know that it's not possible ... and that it's not going to happen anytime soon, so I just muddle through the days, looking forward to Thursday nights when I can have a reasonable escape from an uncertain reality.

Now, I'm just going to try and figure out what the fuck I'm going to do with myself. And probably start looking for another job in town - or at least see what's available.