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[hiddenmuse]

I hate this whole uncertainty thing. I hate going into work and almost wondering if I'm going to have a job at the year's end ... or if I should just go ahead and get my resumé updated and at the ready, just in case. I hate the fact that I'm starting to dread going to work in the morning. I don't know if it's depression, job insecurity, or what - but it really sucks, whatever it is.

What's really bad is when I come home from work and just cry for no reason whatsoever. There's just too much going on right now, I'd love to just shut the world down and hide away for a while, but I know that it's not possible ... and that it's not going to happen anytime soon, so I just muddle through the days, looking forward to Thursday nights when I can have a reasonable escape from an uncertain reality.

Now, I'm just going to try and figure out what the fuck I'm going to do with myself. And probably start looking for another job in town - or at least see what's available.

Comments

[prrrn.livejournal.com]

You do have a lot of uncertainty and a lot going on as well as the lingering depression. I'm not surprised, just from what you've written, that you come home and cry or don't want to go to work. It still sucks, though... I suppose if they lay you off that at least you'll get unemployment! :) (My roommate works for a similarly unpredictable company.)

::hugs::
~Johanna

[sigmaration.livejournal.com]

don't be afraid to look out of town!!

*tempt tempt tempt*