hiddenmuse | Popular

Before I met Kellie, I knew of her. To me, she was a very cool gal, seemed to be really popular, very talented, on and on. Basically, she was a million times cooler than me, and there would be no chance in Hell of her *ever* talking to me.

I'd wanted to talk to her, to get up the nerve to actually e-mail her ... but good God, if I didn't feel myself constantly being overcome by shyness. We'd had casual interactions, basically in the form of my asking for a salacious article, and later, sending over a couple of Steve quotes for her site: http://www.barenakedbliss.net {no, I wasn't put up to this - I'm pimping the site independently, despite my relationship with the webmistress}. Other than that, nothing.

Until there was a bit of buzz over the Barenaked Ladies' episode of Egos & Icons on Much Music - the buzz generated by the sight of Ed and Steve necking on TV. *eg* Kellie mentioned on the message board we posted to that she had a screen cap of Ed kissing Steve, and was willing to share - just e-mail & ask for it.

Being the self-confessed slash-slut that I am, I asked and received. I even got up the nerve to 'fess up to writing erotica and slash ... and shared some of my tales with her. In return, I got to read some of the stuff she'd written (despite what she might say of her writings, they were really damn good), and we started talking.

Turns out that we had more in common than a shared affection for Steven Page (and a perverse desire to watch him and Ed kiss), and a friendship started up. We have some similarities, and many differences, yet we do get along well. :)

When the friendship evolved into something more serious, I had my concerns. That her friends would look at me like a starfucker of sorts, as though I were a stupid girl sycophant, with her because of *who* she is, not *what* she is. That they'd think I was "dating up" or something. Basically I worried that people would think that my intentions were less than honorable.

Well, it's been over a year now. I've met (and become acquainted with) some of her friends, and none of them have made me feel like I wasn't welcome in their circles. I may have only met most of you on here - I'd hope to get a chance to meet you at BNL shows at some point!

As for Kellie, I found out that she's not the unapproachable Miss Popularity that I'd thought she was. She's very sweet, friendly, caring, loving, honest, intelligent, and so many other adjectives. She impresses me with her knowledge about things I can't even begin to comprehend. She listens to me when I've had a miserable day and I'm ready to lose my head. She tells me that I'm beautiful - and means it. She is a wonderful being, with such a good heart, and she means a lot to me. Those that know her know what I mean. :)

Thank you for being around Kellie. I love you.