acquiesce (or, yet another one for the philosophers)

I had one of the idiot producers ask me why I take the answers I'm given by our company people on a pending cancellation - why do I go along with their reasoning, and not question it. Well, probably because they're the company people and therefore above us, and know more of what's going on and have their reason for doing this. Why should I question it?

It just got me to thinking. When did I become so bull-headed and stubborn with regard to some things, and so meek and submissive on others? What drives me to work away at something (or someone) until it finally gives - but in other situations, why do I just stand back, smile and resign myself to defeat early on?

Was it something in my upbringing? Something in the religious doctrine? Something said to me in school? Something in the water, even? Or, was it just something that I picked up on my own and somehow co-opted as being the "right way to be"?

I don't really know - and it's something that truly bothers me about myself. (One of many things, as you've probably figured out by now.)

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Since I burned the roof of my mouth last night while eating dinner (chicken & potatoes ... quite yummy), I couldn't wear my bite guard to bed - or even today. :(

There is quite a difference, that's for sure. My jaw is achy again, so between that and cramps, I've been trying to disguise my grumpiness - and wanting to crawl into bed. (Yeah, Steve under the blankets in my icon does look rather welcoming - and a bit mischevious - doesn't he?)

If nothing else, it's a short week. Tomorrow is Casual Day, we get out at 3:00, I'm staying the night with my parents - and spending Turkey Day with them. And, if all goes well, I should be able to get to The NPs show on Thursday night, too!

So, it'll be fine. I just have to remind myself of that, I guess - and ride out this bit of grumpiness I'm going through today.

Have a good afternoon/evening, my lovelies!

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You know, I haven't updated on my stepdad much in a while.

He's doing alright, aside from the dialysis sometimes leaving him a bit on the hypotensive side. At this point, he's managed to stay out of the hospital for about a month and a half, so I'm thrilled over that.

Yet, recently, he'd started to have particularly bad headaches. They weren't migraines, and they weren't going away when he'd take over-the-counter pain relievers. So, he had to go in for a CAT scan. This can seem a bit un-nerving, as you do your best to remain optimistic, but it's hard to not sometimes think of the "worst case scenario".

Well, after several days of being on spilkes, the good news is, everything is fine. He has a brain (heh) and there wasn't any problem with the sinuses, either. So, we're not sure what's brought on the headaches, but at least things are clear. No signs of tumors, blood clots, impending stroke, etc. Thank heavens.

I think the headaches are possibly due to the dialysis and subsequent hypotension, or just stress-related in some way. At least it's not being caused by anything Big Deal.

For anyone interested - BNL-related

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