Good Things

Yes, I've had some good things happen in my life recently. :)

Last night, I'd gone to the local library near my office for their twice-a-month movie night (I'm not sure if it's "bi-monthly" or "semi-monthly" -ed.). Anyways, they were showing a Woody Allen film called Sleeper, a film that was made in 1973 about a man that was cryogenically frozen after complications from surgery, and brought back to life in the year 2173.

Of course, it was a bit cheesy, but some things were quite funny - a VW bug (Beetle for the younger ones) starting up after 200 years. A New York Times from the 1990s with the headline: "Pope's Wife Gives Birth to Twins". Chocolate and tobacco being *good for you*. Considering how things are going in modern times, a bit of escapism was good. :)

Afterwards, I was so tempted to go out to Denny's or IHOP - even though I'd already had dinner before the movie. Rather than give in and go out, I thought about why I'd want to eat again, and realized that I wasn't truly hungry. I was bored and/or wanted to be sociable. So, I came home, puttered about and was in bed by 11 p.m. The next day, I was proud of myself for not giving in and overeating. :)

Today, I went to lunch with my supervisor - mainly because we both wanted to check out a shop that someone was raving on about. So we went out for Taco Hell (thank G*d for Prevacid, that's all I can say), then went to the shop - where we saw all kinds of goodies. I was a bad girl & gave in, buying a couple of bracelets (one has amber beads & a red Budhha, another looks a bit like Mah Jongg tiles strung together) and a fake Coach purse.

Then, later this afternoon, I got good news. I've gotten a promotion on paper (translation: change in title), and when the bonuses and raises come around, should be nicely rewarded. So, instead of being a "Customer Service Assistant", I am now a "Personal Account Representative". In other words, I'm pretty much a full-on CSR. Yay me!

That's all for now. I've gotta get home so I can return Lilo & Stitch to the video store!

Two Sides To Every Story

You know, I have to be careful. With the good things that are happening recently, and the fact that my mood is starting to lift (thanks Effexor!), I have to be careful & make sure that I don't get cocky and go off my meds again ... or have something absolutely minor happen that completely kills my mood and puts me on a downward spiral.

I know, it may sound absolutely silly ... but if I want to commit myself to keeping my mental health on an even keel, I have to watch out for those little things that tripped me up in the past.

Maybe it's just that it's been so long since I've been truly happy - not that I haven't had moments and days of genuine happiness without meds - that I don't know what to do, or how to feel!! So of course, my pretty little mind gets wound up in almost-unrealistic fears of going into major highs, like I did with Paxil years ago. I guess I'm worried that my happiness is a possible predecessor to mania. Or that this happiness is a disingenuous sort of happiness.

I just know that right now, I'm going through my share of emotions, and that I have a very real concern (that I may try to go off my medication for the eleventy billionth time). Watch, this could just be PMS and me being hypersensitive to everything ... it would be my luck.