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Mar. 21st, 2003 09:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hiddenmuseI'm feeling grumpy and whiny tonight.
Now, I've had a pretty decent week, so that isn't the problem. I just have a wicked headache and my face & jaw hurt.
It's days like this that caffeine sobriety is damn near impossible. Yet, I've done pretty well with the food, resisting the temptation to get frozen custard after returning a couple of DVDs to Hollywood Video - or even hopping onto the next bus and going to Oberweis to see what they have to offer besides milk.
Instead, I took my rented copy of Lilo & Stitch home, managed to only eat a small amount of that Edy's (or Dreyer's, on the west coast) Dreamery Fortunate Vanilla ice cream I'd gotten last night, and watched anything but the news.
I don't think that not watching the news makes me a bad person. I just know that right now, I'm in a precarious situation emotionally, and I'm watching out for myself. Meaning that I'm still in the woods with my antidepressant - I've got about 4 more weeks before it really kicks in - and I don't feel like watching or listening to anything overly depressing. I do hear the news about the war on the radio, but otherwise, I'm not paying very close attention.
Did I mention that when I went to the internist on Tuesday, he got upset with me for having gone off Serzone (an antidepressant) over a year ago? He'd asked me about the antidepressants I'd been on, and the side effects. When I got to Serzone, I honestly couldn't remember the side effects, and said that I went off because of the reports of liver damage and failure being caused by the drug.
He told me that the reports were just that - reports. That the drug hadn't been pulled from the market, and that liver function was just something that had to be monitored while on the drug. Then I was told that I shouldn't have gone off Serzone because of that alone. Well, excuse me, but there's already a risk of liver problems with my seizure medicine. I didn't feel like adding insult to injury, alright? Yeah, you're the doctor and know more about medicine in general ... but I'm the patient, and I'm keeping tabs on my medications, so I know what I can - and cannot - take.
Maybe he was having a bad day, but it just bothered me (probably more than necessary) that I was being told that I was wrong for stopping a medication in favor of another.
Now, I've had a pretty decent week, so that isn't the problem. I just have a wicked headache and my face & jaw hurt.
It's days like this that caffeine sobriety is damn near impossible. Yet, I've done pretty well with the food, resisting the temptation to get frozen custard after returning a couple of DVDs to Hollywood Video - or even hopping onto the next bus and going to Oberweis to see what they have to offer besides milk.
Instead, I took my rented copy of Lilo & Stitch home, managed to only eat a small amount of that Edy's (or Dreyer's, on the west coast) Dreamery Fortunate Vanilla ice cream I'd gotten last night, and watched anything but the news.
I don't think that not watching the news makes me a bad person. I just know that right now, I'm in a precarious situation emotionally, and I'm watching out for myself. Meaning that I'm still in the woods with my antidepressant - I've got about 4 more weeks before it really kicks in - and I don't feel like watching or listening to anything overly depressing. I do hear the news about the war on the radio, but otherwise, I'm not paying very close attention.
Did I mention that when I went to the internist on Tuesday, he got upset with me for having gone off Serzone (an antidepressant) over a year ago? He'd asked me about the antidepressants I'd been on, and the side effects. When I got to Serzone, I honestly couldn't remember the side effects, and said that I went off because of the reports of liver damage and failure being caused by the drug.
He told me that the reports were just that - reports. That the drug hadn't been pulled from the market, and that liver function was just something that had to be monitored while on the drug. Then I was told that I shouldn't have gone off Serzone because of that alone. Well, excuse me, but there's already a risk of liver problems with my seizure medicine. I didn't feel like adding insult to injury, alright? Yeah, you're the doctor and know more about medicine in general ... but I'm the patient, and I'm keeping tabs on my medications, so I know what I can - and cannot - take.
Maybe he was having a bad day, but it just bothered me (probably more than necessary) that I was being told that I was wrong for stopping a medication in favor of another.
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Date: 2003-03-22 01:03 am (UTC)I don't think that not watching the news makes you a bad person. And even if it did, it means we are bad people together.
You are taking care of yourself by not watching. It sounds like a smart decision to me.
As for the asshat doctor. Some of them don't seem to realize that while their expertise is valuable and should be considered... unless there is a glaring reason for you to not take one med vs. another (like... it will kill you or it reacts with another of your meds), then you have the right to make choices best for you.
You keep on doing what is best for you. Listen to the doctors, yes... but don't be afraid to stand up for yourself.
I love you.