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[hiddenmuse]

Last night, I came out to my mom, while I was making arrangements for the holidays.

I'm not sure how it happened exactly beyond, "she asked, I told". She told me several times that she still loves me unconditionally, but she does not condone my "lifestyle", and does not want "it" in her house - especially since my sister is 16 years old.

What does that mean? Well, when Kellie and I go to St. Louis, we are going to stay in a hotel. Out of respect for my mom's wishes and also to allow everyone keep their sanity.

I'm sure that my mom will have so many questions - and I'll have to find out how to answer them all. But I will definitely let her know that I am still the same daughter that she's known and loved all these years. Nothing has changed beyone who I am sharing my life with.

It does bother me some that my mom doesn't want "it" in her house - what is she talking about anyways? That she doesn't want the queerness in her house, afraid that it is contagious or something? Is she afraid that we'll "convert" my sister? That we'll be obnoxious, flamboyant and in everyone's faces?

Whatever it is, I will probably find out soon enough. Right now, I'm just feeling so many things, I don't know where to start. I'm still reeling from the fact that it happened, and that my mom didn't yell at me - and I was the one doing all the crying.

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/_recoil/]

Well you know at 16, kids are like mushrooms and they just kind of absorb whatever gets placed next to them. It could be a delicious sauce or it could be the gay.

I'm proud of you and hope that everything turns out okay. I'm sure "it" is the mindset that you'd behave in the same way with a woman that you might if you were bringing home a man. She might feel like now that you're out, you're REALLY going to be out and making out during dinner and talking about dental dams. I wouldn't worry about it too much, just be you.

[sigmaration.livejournal.com]

So we're not supposed to talk about dental dams at dinner?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_recoil/]

Well, I mean if it comes up you should do your best to inform and educate, but I wouldn't sit down in your flannel and doc martin boots and say "I've got a serious case of beaver fever, does your Sam's sell that bulk pack of dental dams?"

[hiddenmuse.livejournal.com]

Oh please! I don't wear flannel ... did that when I was in college and it was called "grunge style"! The doc martens, however, would just be to get through the snow and muck!

[sigmaration.livejournal.com]

Besides. I honestly have never used a dental dam in my entire life.

[hiddenmuse.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. :-)

I'm not sure what "it" is, but I'm sure that I'll find out at some point! Maybe it is that mindset you mentioned. Maybe it's some unfounded worry that I'm going to march into the house and be obnoxious and in-your-face about my sexuality. Hopefully, I can prove to my mom that I am the same person, and that nothing has changed.