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[hiddenmuse]

As much as I hate going to the doctor (I would say that I'd rather go to the dentist ... but I'm doing that, too) - it'll help me. I've been having headaches almost daily, tremors (shaky hands, and even a twitchy eye) and every once in a while, insomnia. I either have trouble getting to sleep - or I keep waking up in the night. Last night was especially bad - went to bed by midnight, couldn't get to sleep until about 3 a.m. Even after I'd taken a Flexaril (which knocked me out the last time I'd taken it), still wide awake for at least an hour or so.

With the insomnia, I know that it would mean increasing my Effexor dosage. Not what I want to do, but it may be a necessary evil - something the doctor had mentioned to me. As for the headaches and tremor ... maybe a side effect of one of my eleventeen hundred meds.


And the dentist? I really like my dentist - hell, my entire department goes to her, on my recommendation - but I still hate going for check-ups. Probably because of childhood dental trauma (a dentist smacked me across the face for being squirmy and crying while he tried to work on me*) - and the resulting bad teeth because of it. I'm embarrassed to smile - not just because I look like a psychopath when I do, but because of my wonky mouth ... which would need a couple thousand in veneers to cover up stains and fucked-up fillings. I won't even go into the rest, except to say that it's going to involve repairing past damage.


*said dentist later died of a heart attack. My response after getting the news? "Good. I'm glad he's dead." Yeah, that didn't go over very well with the family friend who heard me say that.


Okay ... so that's all. Perhaps I'm just making much ado about nothing. But, my little mind does that. A lot.