Religion ...
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hiddenmuseFor those that know, I spent a good part of my life in the Mormon Church, before moving to San Francisco two years ago - and joining MCC this year. As religions go, it is a Christian-based faith, despite what they tend to say. Sure, there's a little bit of Judiaica for good measure, but don't tell most of the people I went to church with while growing up ... they'd have a collective conniption fit. Culturally, it is Hell on Earth if you do not fit into a nice little neat mold of Stepfordian goodness. To illustrate this, I found this comment written by someone - name and source have been removed to protect all involved. But, it kind of shows what the Mormon experience is like for those of us that don't fit the mold *just right*. Granted, this person isn't queer - she's single and over 30, which is almost as bad in Mormon eyes, it seems.
All grammatical and spelling errors are the author's (as much as it killed me to not edit the hell out of it ... I didn't) - and my comments are in italics.
I have been thinking for a while that I needed to start writing on here again. I mean I am paying for the service so I might as well use it.... I don't attend relief society {Relief Society is the women's organization} and sunday school anymore and haven't for years. And I am like a ghost at Sacrement {Sacrament is basically the sermon} meeting. I am in and out and don't look back. It is like I am in Mormon purgatory(being 31 and single) {31 and single is Mormon Purgatory? Wow, and I thought that Purgatory was reserved for the closeted GLB Mormons who can never ever share their lives with another person, as long as they are queer ... because you can only be queer and celibate if you want to stay Mormon. For serious.} sure I can go to a Family Ward, but I will feel out of place there too. So I mean, I cannot grow. At least I feel like I can't grow, socially, spiritually, and emotionally. I think all of these coincide with one another, so if I am in a situation where one of these are effected then all of these are. At least in my opinion. I read that only 13% of YSA's {YSA = Young Single Adult} in the church are active! I honestly couldn't believe it, probably because I go to a university ward and it is full every Sunday. But, as I thought about it the thought that I've been having quite frequently came into my mind. I honestly believe that the church loses alot of it's members when they are in their mid-twenties to mid-thirties, {Are you sure that it's not because of late rebellion ... or finally coming out?} especially if many of their hopes have seemed to faulter, like marriage, careers haven't gone the way they wanted, or life in general hasn't gone the way they imagined. The church is so family-oriented that it is logical to imagine that this may be a problem. {Or it may be that you reek of 'Eau de Desperation' ... men *love* that one!} It is my problem with other issues through in.... Of course it is hard to have patience when I am still looking for work after three years of looking for decent employment. I graduated college in 2003. I have looked far and wide and still haven't found anything and I am not being picky either. I still live at home with a very emotionally needy mother {You live with Norman Bates' mother? Damn, woman!} and socially I am dead! So needless to say I am discouraged. I use to get mad at the situation, but now I just roll with the punches and hope that I will see light at the end of the tunnel soon! {No! It'll never happen! There's no hope! Suck it up and deal with it!}
All grammatical and spelling errors are the author's (as much as it killed me to not edit the hell out of it ... I didn't) - and my comments are in italics.
I have been thinking for a while that I needed to start writing on here again. I mean I am paying for the service so I might as well use it.... I don't attend relief society {Relief Society is the women's organization} and sunday school anymore and haven't for years. And I am like a ghost at Sacrement {Sacrament is basically the sermon} meeting. I am in and out and don't look back. It is like I am in Mormon purgatory(being 31 and single) {31 and single is Mormon Purgatory? Wow, and I thought that Purgatory was reserved for the closeted GLB Mormons who can never ever share their lives with another person, as long as they are queer ... because you can only be queer and celibate if you want to stay Mormon. For serious.} sure I can go to a Family Ward, but I will feel out of place there too. So I mean, I cannot grow. At least I feel like I can't grow, socially, spiritually, and emotionally. I think all of these coincide with one another, so if I am in a situation where one of these are effected then all of these are. At least in my opinion. I read that only 13% of YSA's {YSA = Young Single Adult} in the church are active! I honestly couldn't believe it, probably because I go to a university ward and it is full every Sunday. But, as I thought about it the thought that I've been having quite frequently came into my mind. I honestly believe that the church loses alot of it's members when they are in their mid-twenties to mid-thirties, {Are you sure that it's not because of late rebellion ... or finally coming out?} especially if many of their hopes have seemed to faulter, like marriage, careers haven't gone the way they wanted, or life in general hasn't gone the way they imagined. The church is so family-oriented that it is logical to imagine that this may be a problem. {Or it may be that you reek of 'Eau de Desperation' ... men *love* that one!} It is my problem with other issues through in.... Of course it is hard to have patience when I am still looking for work after three years of looking for decent employment. I graduated college in 2003. I have looked far and wide and still haven't found anything and I am not being picky either. I still live at home with a very emotionally needy mother {You live with Norman Bates' mother? Damn, woman!} and socially I am dead! So needless to say I am discouraged. I use to get mad at the situation, but now I just roll with the punches and hope that I will see light at the end of the tunnel soon! {No! It'll never happen! There's no hope! Suck it up and deal with it!}
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Date: 2006-04-20 04:47 am (UTC)