Mocrosoft (or, "I kin spel perfektlee")
Aug. 21st, 2003 05:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hiddenmuseIt's Thursday, and I wish I didn't have to work today. Maybe it's because I took my Sonata after 11:00 last night - and almost had to drag my butt out of bed at 7:00 in the morning.
Or perhaps it's because co-worker energy can be pretty contagious when you all get along. Rachelle's getting married this Saturday, and the poor girl could barely sit still today, she was so anxious and fidgety. I don't blame her - I'd probably be the same way if I were getting married.
*shrugs* I have to say that the coolest thing to happen today - besides my managing to resist the temptation to dive face-first into a box of cookies from the Great American Cookie Company - definitely had to be a compliment a co-worker gave me. Out of nowhere, she told me that it was great to see me smiling again. I would definitely agree with that - it's nice to be able to smile again, and be genuine about it.
And if I could give myself gold stars for my accomplishments - I'd be giving myself a few gold stars for being able to initiate phone calls to clients, without pussyfooting around or trying to find an out. Yes, I spent about 5 years with this agency, as their receptionist, and calling people on the phone was the most frightening thing for me. I don't know how it came about, but all I can say is that it's amazing what you'll endure in the name of work.
Somehow, I could shelve my social phobia and do my job for eight hours a day, then go home and take about 15 minutes giving myself a pep talk so I could be comfortable enough with calling to order takeout, or to make an appointment for a haircut.
Sure, the Effexor helped to a degree - but not completely. The Lexapro may actually be helping the social anxiety (or I'm just somehow lulled into thinking so...), which is a very very good thing.
As always, I wish I didn't have to rely on this sort of thing - but that's just the way it is for me, and probably many others in the world. It's a hell of a lot better than spending my days feeling like a prisoner of my unfounded and irrational fears.
Or perhaps it's because co-worker energy can be pretty contagious when you all get along. Rachelle's getting married this Saturday, and the poor girl could barely sit still today, she was so anxious and fidgety. I don't blame her - I'd probably be the same way if I were getting married.
*shrugs* I have to say that the coolest thing to happen today - besides my managing to resist the temptation to dive face-first into a box of cookies from the Great American Cookie Company - definitely had to be a compliment a co-worker gave me. Out of nowhere, she told me that it was great to see me smiling again. I would definitely agree with that - it's nice to be able to smile again, and be genuine about it.
And if I could give myself gold stars for my accomplishments - I'd be giving myself a few gold stars for being able to initiate phone calls to clients, without pussyfooting around or trying to find an out. Yes, I spent about 5 years with this agency, as their receptionist, and calling people on the phone was the most frightening thing for me. I don't know how it came about, but all I can say is that it's amazing what you'll endure in the name of work.
Somehow, I could shelve my social phobia and do my job for eight hours a day, then go home and take about 15 minutes giving myself a pep talk so I could be comfortable enough with calling to order takeout, or to make an appointment for a haircut.
Sure, the Effexor helped to a degree - but not completely. The Lexapro may actually be helping the social anxiety (or I'm just somehow lulled into thinking so...), which is a very very good thing.
As always, I wish I didn't have to rely on this sort of thing - but that's just the way it is for me, and probably many others in the world. It's a hell of a lot better than spending my days feeling like a prisoner of my unfounded and irrational fears.
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Date: 2003-08-21 05:19 pm (UTC)