Don't tell me to not worry!

[hiddenmuse]

That's a pet peeve for me, when people tell me to not worry over something. For the record, that just makes me more anxious. And right now, that's the last thing I need.

I almost wonder if it's in my nature to worry over everything. Perhaps related to the whole "firstborn" thing, and that need to make sure that everyone and everyting is taken care of, that nothing's out of place.

Or, it's just my dysfunctional thinking, courtesy of the depression that seems to want to keep a stronghold on my mind, refusing to let go, no matter what I try.

It's the mindset I got myself all screwed up into - that whole idea of presenting a happy face, keeping up appearances, etc. Not letting people see you sweat or suffer. The mentality that only serves as self-sabotage in the end, when it all comes down. I'm not going to lay blame on anyone - it's entirely possible that this is all my own doing. My own damn fault.


I've gotten myself into this mess, I can get myself out. As long as I can reach out to another and ask for help. That's the hardest part.

Comments

[bnlkat.livejournal.com]

I know exacty where you are coming from. Your post describes me to a tee. I constantly tell people "I'm fine" and put on a happy face when inside I am far from fine. I don't know why I do it. I suppose it stems from my childhood, but I'm not one to dwell on such things.

Just know you're not alone, and there's someone who knows exactly where you are coming from.

Oh, and my "pet peeve" is the phrase "cheer up!" grrrrrrrrr or "You're in a bad mood." No shit! Leave me alone then! sheeeeeeeeeeeesh

[sigmaration.livejournal.com]

I love you.

Sometimes, if you didn't worry... I'd worry.

[msboop.livejournal.com]

I hate that too... it's like putting a bandaid on a 2 inch deep cut with no stitches. You'll never hear me say don't worry, unless it's about what other people think of you. I approach those things with the golden rule and ask a bunch of questions to see if the conclusion (need to worry) will remain, and if it does, then so be it.

[livinginoctober.livejournal.com]

I hate that too. It makes me get angry and even more worried=no fun.

[redaryl.livejournal.com]

It's along the same lines as "you shouldn't feel that way". I hate that phrase.

I stopped telling people that something was wrong with me because I got tired of them asking "why" or "can I help?" and having to explain.

I hope you feel better soon.