Today...

[hiddenmuse]

would have been my step-dad's 49th birthday.

You know, I thought it would be insanely hard - that I'd have a hard time getting through the day. But, it wasn't bad at all. Yes, I'd thought of him a few times, and cried once twice.

Day by day, it is getting better. Very slowly, but surely.

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[gardengnomegeek.livejournal.com]

*hugs and more hugs*

My, he was very young to die. What happened? I hope you don't think that is a nosy question.

Hope today is better for you.

[hiddenmuse.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hugs back*

He'd had testicular cancer a few years back, and the chemotherapy (among other things) just wreaked havoc on his system - he'd had strokes, kidney failure, and ultimately had a heart attack.

It was a lot of suffering - but he's in a better place now (wherever that place happens to be)

[gardengnomegeek.livejournal.com]

I am just a little bit sick of cancer. When I was a pretty small kid, I heard this stat that you would never go through life without knowing somebody die of cancer. At the time, it seemed surreal. Now it seems obvious.

Kevin had a testicular cancer scare many years ago. We were actually broken up at the time, but it brought us back together.

[nikitaquincy.livejournal.com]

It's true. I never believed that statement either, until I lost a couple of friends to cancer when I was in high school. After that, it seemed like it was neverending. :( I lost my godmother a few years ago to lung cancer, and she'd never smoked a day in her life. She was the closest thing I'd ever had to a grandmother, and I was devastated when she passed away.

And now to lose my dad, it's just so heartbreaking. :( And my mom had uterine cancer last year, but fortunately hers was caught early enough that they could operate and she hasn't had it since.

[hiddenmuse.livejournal.com]

I'd known *of* people that had cancer in one shape or form - but when it's someone close to you, that's when it really hits hard.

I'm glad that your mom has been cancer-free - that is probably a relief in your mind.

[nikitaquincy.livejournal.com]

I'm glad too. I don't think I'd have been able to handle losing both parents. :(

[hiddenmuse.livejournal.com]

You're not the only one that's sick of cancer. Several years before my stepdad's diagnosis, I had a co-worker whose son died of testicular cancer. I was so afraid to mention that my stepdad was sick, and that eventually, he'd had some time cancer-free, because I didn't know how this co-worker would take it.